Has it ever felt like everyone dislikes you strongly for liking someone a lot? Sounds crazy, right?

Either way, I'm involved with someone new now and so far it seems like a good match.

I just worry. I feel like I'm losing a lot to start something new and bright. Contrary to the warmth of the situation, the only thing I can think about is how much it's going to suck to break up with him, whoever ends up severing ties or why... But it was only on the eighth that things finally came together officially and it shouldn't be on my mind. I'm not actively pondering doing it now or any time soon of course, but my last break-up is still on my mind and it's not leaving me alone. In some ways it's keeping me from enjoying the future that might be with Shane.

I just don't feel like I have closure. I feel like Max owes me so much, and it's come down to the matter of me accepting that he's never going to pay his dues, nor is he able to. He feels like he's spent all the time, emotions and resources he needs to on me, and he's done. I mean, that's why we broke up. It's always going to be extremely hard for me to come to terms with because I feel like I gave so much more everything: patience, care, committment, love, compromise... *Sigh.*

Thankfully, it feels like Shane can give me these things in equal reciprocation, and that comforts me. I like spending time with him and I feel like everything else will sort itself out in the end. Time has a pentient for mending things right under our noses.